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A Gift To My God

by Since The Death

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1.
Under dominant influences Misled by an invisible force Creeping to the ancient mirror, I saw The image of a redhorned creature Surrounded by a dark prescence Not from this side, rather beyond the glass It feels as if its crowded in here But I am all alone, no reason to be scared The pride that I am strong, no need for help is about to fail My bodyskin, my outer shell is about to boil, have reached the limit for melting Not used to see myself like this Is this becoming my reality When I go my own way, but the devil I think I saw Is he real? Cause the creature was me!! Empty expressions no more Flames lit my eyes, make my grin to a weapon I am alive, not buried in failure Not dying, I’m the first borned lightbringer My bodyskin, my outer shell is about to boil, have reached the limit for melting Not used to see myself, like this Is this becoming my reality When I go my own way, but the devil I think I saw Is he real? Cause the creature was me!! Is this my reality or is this just a dreadful dream I must have dreamed this, this can’t be real Taken beyond, whats now Into a paralell world Where I am something else Into a world where I am accepted Travelled through mistakes and deficiencies Into a world where my sins are sanctified No guidance No tears inside No need that I have to give No Solitude, I’m not alone The creature and I are entwined Enchanted by my own morbid deeds I can rest in that I don’t need others to feel whole In nocturnal escapades, we work in the shade of you From early hour to evening fall
2.
Ungrateful 03:49
God the creater and master of the universe. I’m the WEAKEST lying at the bottom. I’m forgotten, hidden, no longer in your sight Pushed over the edge so I, so I can’t breath Why do you ignore my prayers, you never answer me I believe in you WHY can’t you believe in me I feel that I’m NOTHING, only dust! I know the taste of bitterness, in this sinister relationship You don’t warm my heart when it’s needed But you don’t freeze it either I am LEFT behind You’re in front and I’m at the end I’m last, last, last Away Why do you ignore my prayers, you never answer me I believe in you WHY can’t you believe in me I feel that I’m NOTHING, only dust! I know the taste of bitterness, in this sinister relationship I am here, standing right in front of you Not behind a wall, I have opened a door Using your heart and spirit might be poetic, but I am waiting for a purpose Maybe you’ll think I should deny my life I am LEFT behind You’re in front and I’m at the end I’m last, last, last Away
3.
Intro 01:22
4.
Cut with a paper, knife forgotten Blood is dripping, down to the floor A Newborn sea, is created Watch for the waves, look for a sign Wideopen, looks like a mouth A red ocean, falls down to the ground Looks like I’m tortured, carved up No way, don’t you pity me I give my blood as a gift to my God Take it back, never belonged to me I give my blood as a gift to my God Why did you put me into this world I Smother the fire on my skin Excited, with hope that life ends An useless slave, put me in grave I’ll leave this world tonight You know that sea, newly born With that shame, that you are too embaressed about You wish that someone would drag it out of you Cause voluntarily you wont!!! Chained, useless slave Beneath my needs, taking over me Please, bury me! Throw me under soil and put a cross through my lungs. You wish that someone could drag it out of you Cause voluntarily you wont!!!
5.
Reptile 03:35
Flesh, rotten flesh Worms, in your brain Dying, body No soul, just a vacuous face Your life, cannot be relived Sense (for some one else), you don’t have You are arrogant, and malevolent Just (my prescence), makes you spit, and throw up on the cross of christ!!! Your insides have corroded Your brain has shorted Your eyes black as night Your smile, mockin’ and evil Reptile No one, loves you No one, miss you You wish, everyone nothingness Your heart, is black (black and blighted) The devil, incarnate Unmasked, entirely visible Your mind, vicious Like, a deadly reptile, sneaking silently in the night!!! Your insides have corroded Your brain has shorted Your eyes black as night Your smile mockin and evil Reptile!!
6.
You know me, even if I don’t spend any time with you Am I really worthy Cause true happiness, I can’t find Don’t know, where to begin But I already know the answer Cause all these times, I have you denied We together, to become one! Without fear or anxiety I’m weak, might be the weakest, the sliver in your perfect eye I’m nothing, nothing to the world, have nothing to offer anymore I have done what I wanted, what I can not, I will never be able to The silence I was born with have grown, as an echo vibrating fast in my head No one get it, no one understand, I will have eternal life, but my life I have now destroys me It feels as if the botherations are there in my own shadow I admit, I’m honest now I feel excluded, even though I'm not alone I envy others for everything! As a decayed wormy leaf, I have fallen down to the ground Trampled in soil by people with no sense of what goodness is Damn bacteria they sent, has its root in me. Left all alone on the narrow road, no one is coming back for me I’m nothing, nothing to the world, have nothing to offer anymore I have done what I wanted, what I can not, I will never be able to The silence I was born with have grown, as an echo vibrating fast in my head No one get it, no one understand, I will have eternal life, but my life I have now destroys me
7.
Slowly drifting far from the path Forgetting the words I held so dearly He loves me, but I feel neglected I’m still a child, looking for simpleness In the name of truth I’m a grown man Should have learned that happiness isn’t everything Thinking black but the greyscale is wide. You will see! Chaos to bliss! Starring with turbid eyes Looking for someone else to follow Let this dry worship I have, become, rippled Dealing with apathy and sorrow I mourn the daylight to come For that matter, life isn’t slightless Thinking black but the greyscale is wide The good pain, that we endure every hour We suffer as the early servants, who was eager to put their faith in front of sience Knowing the saviour, out of this sphere is the creator of man The solver of patterns, the healer of wounds When life shrinks, you show us your kingdom When the strenght falters, you give us courage When emptiness in mind, pours out of our concentration You take us to your fathom so we can rest. I’m leaving the place associated with fear As a deer infront of the light I turn left then right, waiting for darkness Though I can breathe out and return This voice inside says; make your own way For that matter, life isn’t slightless Thinking black but the greyscale is wide. The good pain, that we endure every hour and single day We are defended, you might not even see it Not dying inside, blessings will fall upon us We suffer as the early servants, who was eager to put their faith in front of sience The restorer of foundations, the healer of wounds Knowing the saviour, out of this sphere is the creator of man
8.
Every thoughts I carry Emotions, in that moment, overflows In silence I cry Who wants to listen to me? Perfect but dishonest You place yourself straight on, Fathers right side Born without sin, as me But the sins begin, when you put yourself first Who or what is the lord, over you, over me, over them Without any humility You expect as usual magic and wonders He, who loves me Who sees me as his own Takes care of me, even when the world is crackling My happiness is in His hands Luck comes, Luck goes But you remain our Father though Preserve me, from all evil And from them who threathens me Every thoughts is all about me Caring for anyone, I barely have Why should I care Don’t even know why I am here Perfect but dishonest He, who loves me Who sees me as his own Takes care of me, even when the world is crackling My happiness is in His hands Luck comes, Luck goes But you remain our Father though Preserve me, from all evil And from them who threathens me Allow me, to be yours every single day Like a little and innocent child This is, This was, this still are The reposal of Hollowness

about

Its a studiobased metalproject with an allstar-theme.
Not a touring band. (But it would be fun though)
Lyrics is about christian faith and other topics.

With the album "A Gift to My God" I mean that me (or someone else) are throwing away all the things we receive from God, beeing ungrateful and angry. But in some way our faith is still strong thou.

Vocalists:
Gabriel Hökén Tracks 1, 2, 5, 6
Rikard Holmberg (Know Thyself, Withering Reign) Tracks 2, 4, 6, 7, 8
Mattias Ritzen (Bad Taste) Tracks 4, 5, 7, 8

Guitars:
Arvid Risberg (Noise of Silence) Tracks 4, 7
Tommy Hedin Tracks 2, 5
Drums/Bass/Guitars: Oscar Rask

Music and Lyrics made by Oscar Rask

Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/3jUzTM2fYKV0FolviFbhKp?si=nj28UCgWRzSHwWxbTywANQ

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released December 8, 2018

Mixed and Mastered by Ulf Blomberg at Hoborec studios
Frontcover/logo by Cathrine Älg Holthe

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Metalproject with christian emotions/lycis.

Produced by Oscar Rask (me) who started it all in late 2016

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